What Commitment U scare for??

Everytime, Everyday..sure I can heard somebody talk about marry..marry...marry..........
And, of cause some of my friends are build up their family, they have sweet home and Life partner to be with..
I never think for that day comes to me, But I was actually started to searching someone who really can make me lay on for the rest of my life... Hope the person who I search can satisfy me...

I found him actually, but seems like that is no happy ending with him..He is good, He is perfect for me, but I don't know why, He scared on commitment... Maybe that was his passed make him have this kind afraid..
Actually I didn't ask much from him, I just need Him to Love me, That's enough~
I don't need any marriage now.. I just need Him to commit himself to me.. And I will wait for him..
seems like, He don' understand...He thought I force him...
It is hard for me to explain to him, cause he will run away from my question... Why?? Why guy like this?
If U really Love, U can trust this relationship and move on to further right...Why U scare for?
I'am just A simple girl... I never ask much from U..
Of cause I knew that Now everyone were concentrate on career, included me as well...

Commitment, Is it really hard to take? Is It that horrible?? >.<

Decision Made , No Regret

Im here .. start from my training life until I be the permanent staff, permanent resident In Port Dickson.. alot of challenges I faced, I can proudly said.. Grace, U had grow up!!!! Cheers!!!
From work to family to relationship~ there are a lots of knowledge and challenges..
work place fuck tup..staffs were nice but management so so...work like a doggy but what we get just like "Fish" - selfish~~~
family burden was increasing day by day, I know that I cant enjoy my time any more, but I have another reason to stay here..it is more important for me...I found my love..I don't know whether it is the true love, but at least I am trying to make it true..
of cause this things cant work with only one party..this is works up with both parties~ So far, he still fine for me. I never request much, just Love me enough..

Again, Sometime I will regret for what I had choosen, but No choice.. I must move on because I am not 18 19 any more..I don't have time to spend to search a new environment or a new partner~ My time is just like a Gold..24K gold...

Peoples always asked me, Why u choose PD? Any good benefit here? I cant answer..But there is an answer deep inside my heart which stupid answer, I am not a love legend..just be What I wanna be .. I don't want any regrets.. that's all.....

我快乐吗？

生日过了，没错，
那一夜的我很快乐...
那一夜的我很庆幸认识了一般那么要好的朋友...
那一夜的我也感觉很幸福...
但是这一切一切过去了，现在的我...还是那么快乐吗?

有时候会很矛盾的问自己，
我到底怎样才能够真正的快乐?
要怎么样我才会对自己的心灵给上交代?

虽然有时候感情能让我捕上那空虚的心灵,
但总是觉得那不会是我要的快乐~

发自内心真正的快乐，真的很难寻找~

Happy Birthday????

近期内，都在忙着帮自己想些点子来庆祝人生里，算是重要的日子

经过多番思考，我决定了在VooDoo Bar,
这是朋友帮我拿到好价钱的地方
有得吃，有得喝~

可是，快要“到期”的我，越是不快乐~
因为，我所邀请的朋友，对我而言，都是重要的朋友~
从一开始决定的第一个地方，他们说不能呆久，
那我就换了现在这个~

结果，我得到的是什么？？
埋怨！嫌弃！甚至敷衍！！
我真的真的很生气~
感觉像是老娘在求于你们，天哪！
有没有人想想我的感受？？
一个快要过生日的人，策划了她自己的party,
希望的，是得到朋友的祝贺~
结果现在.........?!!?!?!?

算了算了~~
我告诉自己，无论你们来不来，
我的计划照样，决不更变！
因为这是我能为自己争口气的决定~

煎熬

我相信每段感情必有最艰难的时候，
然而，我的并不例外~

为何那么说？艰难在哪？

热恋过后的感情，会随之变淡
这并不表示两人的感情没了，而是....
两人的感情变得成熟了，
所以才会令另一半觉得“我们淡了”

热恋期间的艰难，就是捉摸不定你的另一半的心，
很想知道他/她的心意，很想看穿他/她，
但往往却失败，让自己更加忧虑~

当你爱上一个大男人时，
就要随时准备他的大男人气概爆发。
即使不是爆发，他那种性格，并不是每个人都能够谅解的~
因为，他不会低声下气，他不会温柔，他不会浪漫，
他更不会怜惜身边有个这样的你....

有时候，甚至会想尽所有的借口来帮他弥补自己心里面的不满，
久而久之，当自己歇下时，脑里就会浮现要放弃的念头...

这就是所谓的艰难~
这些种种的挑战，都是考着你对感情的坚持和毅力
若是承受不住，那就表示，自己在这场感情游戏里自动弃权了~
这并不表示输...

艰难期熬过，会看见彩虹的天空。
这都是我一直告诉自己的信念~

选择

每个人都必须在某种情况下做出选择，做出抉择；
然而，我也如此~

在我决定选择他的时候，我已准备好了会面对怎样的人或怎样的事....
当我在徘徊与选择权时，他的冲劲让我感动了~
最终，我选择了他~
他是我最后的抉择.....

两个月后的今天，我没后悔选择他，但我开始害怕了~
因为他，我失去了信心，不知不觉中，我感到很不安~~~

甚至开始怀疑我的决定~ 我害怕受伤.....
因为这会是最痛的~

无论如何，我相信，只要坚持，他会是对的选择~

相见欢

每个人都有自己不想见与想见的人，
通常这些人都是曾经出现在自己生命里最重要的时刻，
或是出现在最精彩的时刻，
这些人都是难忘的~~

虽然嘴里说“不”，但是心理面，还是会偷偷的想遇见这个被自己排在外的人~
看看他到底怎样了，看看他好不好~
这个人的出现或许可以改变了本身的人生观，想法，或是整个生活.....

我期待，我能再次遇见他~
这次，我不会错过与他交谈的机会，我要让他知道.....
我很好！^^